The History of Me

Wow, where do I start?  I could start all the way from the beginning and give you a long drawn out biography of my life from my younger years until today, but even I wouldn't want to read through all of that.  So I'm going to try and keep it as simple as I can without skipping the major events.

To make a long story short, I was raised by both of my biological parents, both of whom were what I consider to be sort of lower middle-class citizens.  Both born and raised in Jacksonville, Fl.  I had a pretty good child hood, no major traumas or misfortunes, but I did watch my parents struggle and work very hard to take care of me and at some point, my siblings.  See, I'm the baby by at least 13 years to my 5 older siblings.  So I kind of grew up alone, for the most part.  

Since I can remember, I've always wanted to do big things, and I've always believed that I could make a difference in the world. As child I dreamed of being a veterinarian, a doctor, an architect, a lawyer, a dancer and a singer.  When I became a teenager, I wanted to be an actress, a singer, a dancer, a fashion designer, a restauranteur, and just an entrepreneur in general.

I was always an excellent student, who didn't have to do much to maintain above a B average.  After graduating high school, I went straight off to college, where life for me changed.  I never really understood what the Cosby produced show, "A Different World," meant by that title until I went to college.  It was definitely a different world.  The things that I used to do to in school that earned me A's and B's, were now only good enough for maybe a D.  I was not prepared for what I experienced, but I must say that those years were the most exciting, fun, lonely, and sad years of my life...lol.

But after 2 years, I didn't have to worry about that anymore, because I returned home to give birth to my baby boy.  Yes, I got pregnant, and now that I look back at it, coming home was probably the worst mistake I've ever made.  I was very lonely and homesick, so at the time it seemed like a good idea, but if I had known then, what I know now, I would have stayed and raised my son there.

Anyway, after returning home and having my son, I had to face the real world.  I worked and tried to go to school, while living at home with my parents.  My mom was a big help, but I just couldn't bounce back.  Soon school became harder and harder, and I found myself withdrawing from semesters left and right.  I had always wanted to go to college and graduate, so I was determined to accomplish this goal, but every time I got started, it seemed like I couldn't finish for one reason or another.  So it took me 6 years just to get my AA degree, and who knows how long it will take me to get my Bachelors or Masters, but I know that as long as I have breath, that I will accomplish this goal.

So since I've come back home, I have worked, doing everything from warehouse work to being an insurance medical underwriter, which is my current job title.  I have had a pretty good permanent position at an insurance company, that I quit to go back to school full time to get my degree and work at a gas station over night.  I have worked in the entertainment/music scene in my city with local artists, managing and assisting them.  I have done Multi-Level Marketing companies, all of which have not been successful for me.  I have tried my hand at sales, which I'm not very good at because I don't really like talking to people...lol.  Recently, I tried going to school for Cosmetology, because I really wanted to learn how to do hair and all that stuff, but I just couldn't find my place there either.  My next plan includes getting my Real Estate license by the end of the year, which seems easy enough.

In 2009, I met my husband, and we got married after knowing each other for only 6 months, 3 of which he spent in jail.  Crazy, I know.  But I felt like he was the one for me.  And there is some method to that madness.  My inspiration for jumping into this was this: my parents only dated for 3 months, before they married and they have been married for 32 years now.  So that's my justification for that.

My husband has 4 children, 3 boys and 1 girl, and I have 1, a boy.  Nevertheless, I love them all the same.  They definitely keep us young, although 2 of them are old enough to be my younger brothers, instead of my sons, but they know mama don't play.

I attempted to go to school for Alternative Medicine in 2010, because I became overly obsessed with all things natural, more about that later.  Also, I decided to go all natural and I chopped off all of my hair in November of 2010.

So here I am.  A wife, a mother, an underwriter, and what else is there?  Those are the only definite titles I hold.  I am a tryologist, I will try anything at least once.  There is so much that I want to do, that sometimes I don't know where to begin.  But, I've figured out a solution for that.  If you would like to know how you can start on your journey of discovering your purpose, please read Discovering Your Purpose: Narrowing Down Your Options.

I know I promised this post wouldn't be that long, but the more I typed, the more details I realized I was missing that needed to be shared, so that my reader would understand some of the things I talk about later.  If you have taken the time to read this entire blog, I thank you and I welcome you to comment and share your story with me as well.